It's 1.40am in the morning. I can't sleep...The same thing has been happening over and over again for the past few days. Every night, same old thoughts and memories flood my mind. Am I alone in feeling this way?
Night brings with it the same old empty feeling thats been locked deep inside me....Why do I feel this way? Whats happening to me? I'm on holidays now but somehow I wished I wasn't. I miss having people around me.. Each day I face four walls and wonder about my existence.. God put's people in this world for a reason....
So whats mine?
I hate this feeling. Results are coming out and this adds to my worries. I know I didn't do well this semester. Too many things happened at the wrong times. I'm scared to know my results. I'm scared to fail, I'm scared that I won't achieve my goal.
Death may seem scary but to me, two of the scariest things in the world are...being alone and failing. I am experiencing both so what else do I have left to say.... I try my best to never fail in anything I do... but this time, I have failed myself. I have let myself down, I have let others that believed in me down.
Speechless....
